Moving here alone, I knew I would have a limited number of friends and family. I thought I could handle it and that I could make friends quickly, but its like transferring high school in the middle of the year - everyone has their own friends and cliques and no one wants the newbie to join their group. Going from having a good group of friends to a few friends has been hard for me. In Hawaii and LA, I could call my friends at any time and enjoy their company whenever. Here, I know very few people and they all have their own friends and lives, so I can't just put myself out there and intrude on their lives. Not only friends, but in regards to family too. In Hawaii and LA, I could go to my house and any aunty or uncle's house at my leisure, without being invited. Here, I have 2 older sets of relatives who are very hospitable, but its not like I can just pop in when I want to and feel so comfortable to take a nap or open the refrigerator. This change has been very tough for me and I'm not sure how I'm really accepting this fact yet... some days I'm alright with it, other days I'm a wreck.
There's so much emotions stirring in my heart and mind right now, but I can't find the words to spit it out.
The main thing is - I miss all of my friends and family both in Hawaii and in LA soooo much. But, I'm going to try my best to continue my life here and experience all that I can with an open heart and a positive attitude.
